I feel like I start every post with “wow, it’s been so long”, but this has probably been the longest stretch of time. I definitely considered quitting blogging altogether, it kind of seems pointless, you know? I think the reason I enjoy blogging though is because I genuinely enjoy writing and it really helps to get stuff out. I am no longer writing on any other sites, so writing kind of disappeared from my life all at once.

This is a running blog and I feel like I can finally talk about running because I am finally back to running again. After last year’s quad injury that led to another DNS of the New York City Marathon, I just felt completely defeated. I barely trained for the Rehoboth Half and then pretty much sat on my ass from January to April.

It felt like starting from scratch again, even though I could still technically run 4-6 miles. It’s been been tough coming back. I struggled with motivation every single day, and still do, but I feel like a runner again.

I spent most of May going to barre, yoga, and pilates classes. I needed something that would hold me accountable and signing up for these classes was exactly what I needed. If I canceled too late, I would be charged money, so I figured this would be a good way to get me back on the exercise wagon. It definitely helped, but after my 3 weeks of unlimited classes was up, I found myself with zero motivation once again.

June is where running finally picked up. I realized how little time I had before 100on100, which is the only race I’m signed up for this summer. I have about 16 miles total to run and running in Vermont is no joke. It was incredibly difficult last year and I have some work to do so I don’t end up killing myself while running the race.

I’ve spent the last 4 weeks building a base, running 14-20 miles a week and they’ve all been super easy miles between 10 and 10:30 average. It’s hot, I’m out of shape, and there’s no reason to push right now, I need to work on running regularly again. I’ve also been focusing on extending my long runs and will go up to 10 miles before the race. I have no desire to run long right now, 10 is plenty!

Anyway, to get to the point of why I decided to blog again is that I ran a race last night and I feel really good about it! I ran the Al Goldstein 5k that is held every other week in Prospect Park over the summer. I’m sad I didn’t take any photos, but it totally happened.

When I decided to run it a few weeks ago, I had a goal of just running a sub 27, which in the old days would be no problem at all, but I haven’t run 9 minute miles in a while, nevermind anything that started with an 8! I forgot my watch, which bummed me out, but whatever, it was only a 5k. I started off with Em, but I quickly lost her once we reach the one and only big hill in the race, which is 1/4 into the race, so we parted ways pretty early on. I decided to just give it my best, to push myself, but not kill myself.

It felt like a miracle race! It was just one of those races where everything clicked and I felt great! It was hard not knowing what mile I was in or how fast I was really running. I just kept telling myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other and I was happy to not feel burnt out quite yet.

My official finish time was 26:45, an 8:38 average pace. Technically I finished at 26:25, since it took me 20 seconds to cross the start, but they don’t account for that since there isn’t a mat at the starting line. Either way, an 8:3x pace makes me ecstatic. It has felt impossible to get back to where I once was and this gives me a little glimmer of hope.

I’m DEFINITELY going back in 2 weeks to race again!

19. February 2015 · 1 comment · Categories: life

I suppose this is how most people must feel after they have a baby! Although, I’m sure it’s way more dramatic and shocking than just getting a new job and a new schedule. So, maybe I’m just being a baby about it, but after my schedule dramatically changing, it seems that I don’t adjust to change that well.

I’m learning to love it though, I’m finding there are so many more pros than cons about this new schedule and new job. And I feel like it’s going to be so much better in the Spring and Summer. Everybody hates you, winter, go away!

Anyway, as of right now, I’ve slowed my job search dramatically. I’m going to be working about 30 hours at my current place, the beer and cheese shop, starting in March and I am actually really excited about it. It’s going to be a bit tough making ends meet, especially since husband and I now have to pay $700/month for health insurance, thanks to the lovely Affordable Care Act. But, I’m not here to complain today, so lets not talk about that! 😉

It only hit me yesterday, but I’m actually saving a lot of money now, thanks to only working 2 blocks away and to having a non traditional schedule.

Here is what my monthly expenditures used to look like on a regular basis:

  • MetroCard: $112
  • Lunch: $160 – $180
  • Coffee: $40
  • Alcohol/Going out: $80
  • Online shopping: $60

Total: $392

Some of those figures are pretty spot on, some are a rough estimate. I definitely ate lunch out a lot at my old job, I feel like this is kind of the NYC way, unfortunately. Coffee? Duh. The alcohol/going out part doesn’t have much to do with my old job, but I do go out way less right now, since I don’t have miserable coworkers to commiserate with. And now my beer is all 50% off, so that definitely works out in my favor. And within the last few months of my old job, I sort of picked up an online shopping addiction. It was just so slow at work and I stared at a computer all day, so obviously what else is there to do?

Those figures now?

MetroCard: Currently < $20/month. I work 2 blocks away, therefore don’t use it every day. I barely go into Manhattan and it’s been an awesome change of pace. I’m sure this might change once the nice weather comes around, but for now, it’s been nice staying local.

Lunch: $20 – $30 I go out with friends for a lunch date occasionally. I eat lunch at home now or eat free at work.

Coffee: $5, maybe? I rarely buy coffee anymore. I make it at home in my (new) french press.


Alcohol/Going out: $80 Okay, so this is basically the same. Only because we can have tabs at work and it’s really hard not to leave with bottles of beer, bread, food, etc. every day. We pay them every week or so, so it definitely adds up. Can definitely cut back on this!

Online shopping: $0! Definitely can’t afford this at the moment. I can’t wait to buy my next piece of Oiselle clothing though! There’s so many awesome new things.

New Total: $135

A savings of $257! So, while I’m making less money and working less overall, I suppose it almost evens out.

Other perks?

– More free time. Most days I don’t work till 6pm, so I have all day to do whatever I need/want to. I’m mostly excited for the summer time, when I can go to the park and relax, and to just be outside in general during the peak hours of the day. Mostly I’ve been spending my time inside, I really hate winter and I’m a hermit for the most part.

– Not taking the subway!!! Not taking the subway. Not taking the subway! Pretty much the best perk ever.

– Not staring at a computer for 8 hours a day. This is the first time I’ve sat at my computer in almost 2 months. Granted, I do stare at my phone and ipad a lot, but not having to use a computer for work is glorious!

– Standing! I also stand all day at my job, which can be tiring, but I’m ready to not be sitting all day, so it’s a nice change. It also means that I don’t freeze to death at my job. I move around a lot and sometimes I get hot. I get hot!! Not normal for me at all.

Things are getting better mentally and physically for me and I’m just trying to make it through this awful season 1 day at a time. I can’t wait to feel like a whole new person on that first 60 – 70 degree day! Seriously, cannot freaking wait!!!


Hibernating until the spring!



I would love to get back to a somewhat normal blogging schedule and I think that’s what will help me fall back into a routine as I’m trying to figure out my new normal.

It’s taking longer than expected for me to snap out of this funk I am in, but every single day I am working on it and really, that’s all I can ask for. Some days are better than others, but I like to think I’m making a bit of progress every week. Life gets in the way, especially when you’re sick and there’s nothing you can really do, but work on getting better and keep resetting yourself. All this time is going to pass anyway, so I try to keep pushing forward and not get discouraged when things don’t go perfectly.


(From one of my favorite places; Rehoboth Beach)

I’m struggling with finding a routine and with not being a lazy piece of shit. There’s a balance that I have yet to achieve. And it doesn’t help that I hate the cold and I barely want to leave my apartment in the winter.

Anyway, I like to think that I’m making some progress, but damn, it’s hard to change your routine when you’ve been working a full time Monday through Friday job for the last 8 years of your life and then suddenly you’re not!

I’m kind of “training” again. Abby graciously made me a training plan to help keep me accountable and it’s somewhat working. I haven’t been following it to a T, but I like to think I’m getting there and it’s certainly better than doing nothing. I’m trying not to be so hard on myself, but also reminding myself how good it feels to run and to push yourself. Finding balance.

As of right now, I’m only signed up for one race in the spring; a 10k on March 29th. I would like to actually race it, so I really need to get my butt in gear and work on many things in order to do that.

I also just turned 30 last week! It was probably one of the best birthdays I’ve had and I am so grateful for all of my friends who made it out to celebrate. Minus the bout of food poisoning Derek and I got from my birthday dinner, it was a fabulous week of celebrating.

Okay, is it Spring yet?

Any tips on finding a routine and actually sticking to it?