Recently, I feel like everywhere I
look read, people are talking about their future, making 5 year plans, 10 year plans, or they are talking about their past and how they are at their 10 year plan mark. I know it’s obviously not the intention, but these things stress me out. They always have. For some reason or another, I have never had a strong vision of where my future will be, I’ve never been a very career driven individual, and a lot of “these plans” are made around a specific career goal.
Now, I’m not saying that I’m getting old, but I will be turning 28 on Sunday and to me, that pretty much means I need to get my shit together in the next 2 years. The goals I have all begin at the ripe age of 30 and I don’t even feel remotely in the process of achieving those goals.
Don’t even get me started on my job. I’m mostly happy with where I am at in my current job, but 1 – 2 times a year I go through a period where I am sure I am about to get laid off. And to say the least, IT’S STRESSFUL. It’s the industry though, I work at a television production company and laying people off is just part of the norm here. I don’t know how I’ve managed it, but I’ve been here almost 3 years and have somehow made the cut each time lay offs happen. I feel really LUCKY, but I’m not sure how long that’s going to last.
Alas, I am at one of those points right now, things are slow and I could easily be let go and then I am left wondering the hell I am supposed to do next. What do I even really want to do? I consider job hunting one of the worst things in the world.
Like I said, I’m not a super career driven person and that’s probably because I have never found that one thing that I know I want to do for the rest of my life. My future goals revolve around running and having children. Is that bad?
Mentally, I feel like a 28 year old, but financially, I feel like a 20 year old. Have I been irresponsible with money? I don’t think so. But, somehow I have no money saved and I’m in debt, mostly due to stupid veterinarian bills from my sick cat. But, whatever, a lot of people share the same stress regarding credit cards, so I try not to dwell on it too much because to an extent, there isn’t much you can do about it.
I guess this is me trying to make a 2 (3?) year plan. What will I do in these 2 years that will help me achieve what I want to by the time I hit 30?
If everything was perfect and it went the way I wanted to, this is how it would go down.
- Focus on reducing debt
- Run 2 marathons, while focusing on getting faster and closer to BQ’ing
- De-clutter my life, most importantly my apartment
- Actually start saving money
- Boston Qualify!
- Go on a nice long vacation
- Turn 30!
- Run the Boston Marathon
- Get pregnant and have a baby
Seems simple enough, right? I just have to learn to execute the steps to make these goals happen, but where do I even begin? I need a life coach.
I just feel so behind on life. Aren’t I supposed to have thousands of dollars saved and be buying a house soon? I know times are different and everyone is at different points in their life, but every once in a while, I get scared and wonder if I did something wrong along the way.
This is a personal post and it’s kind of embarrassing to put it out there, but it helps writing it all down and getting it out of my head and onto
paper the blog and who knows, maybe there’s someone out there who is in the same boat.
Do you have a 2, 5, or 10 year plan? Did you make one 10 years ago, how how did your life turn out in comparison?