First of all, I am so proud and happy for all of my friends who ran the Richmond Marathon today! Congratulations to Leticia on her first marathon, and to Katie, Ashley, Meggie, and Christine!

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Marathon training is making me crazy. I feel burnt out! I trained for 18 weeks, now I am adding an additional 5 weeks to make it a total of 23 weeks of training for 1 marathon. I thought I would be fine, but today is my breaking point. I feel great physically, but my mind is just not on the same path.

I woke up this morning with the intention to run 22 miles (my last really long run again), but I felt so out of it. I went to bed last night with a terrible headache and I woke up dreading the run. I didn’t feel like running for hours and I was very unprepared.

So I’ve been sitting on my couch all morning doing nothing. I can’t focus. I’ve been tracking all my marathon friends for the Richmond Marathon and that’s about it. I WANT to go out for a run, a nice easy 4 miles or something because I know it will make me feel better, but I just can’t seem to do it. I can’t get out of this funk.

I don’t even know what the point of this post is, but I need to get it out of me. I’m not sick of running, but I can’t seem to get pumped up to run another 22 miles when all I want to do is run the marathon I’ve been training for! I’m so happy for all of my friends, but the fact that everyone is running their race this weekend or next weekend, kind of kills me a little. I am jealous. I don’t regret signing up for Rehoboth at all! I REALLY WANT TO RUN THIS RACE. But, it’s getting difficult since it’s still a whole 4 weeks away. That’s kind of a long time when my mind and body were ready to race last weekend.

You train for weeks and weeks and your reward is the race at the end of it all. I just want my reward, my race.

I can’t decide if these 5 weeks of extra training are a good thing or a bad thing, but it’s what I gotta do. I need to get through those 22 miles tomorrow and then the next time I run for that long will be on Race Day! I feel very anxious to say the least. The more time that passes, the more I doubt what I will be able to do on marathon day. I can’t even believe I have to go through taper ALL OVER AGAIN. Remember how crazy I got?


After these 22 miles, I will have done 5 – 20+ mile runs for this training period. Get me to a marathon now!!!!

I’m running the Philly Half next weekend and I am really looking forward to it. I have some goals for it, but that’s another post. Today, I need to focus on clearing my mind of scrambled thoughts and getting myself ready for a fantastic run tomorrow.

Sorry for all of my crazy/negative posts lately. Marathon training (and taper) messes with your head. I’m kind of a mess right now and if you have any advice or words of wisdom that will help me get through these next 4 weeks, they are very much appreciated.

There are so many opinions and thoughts out there about the NYC marathon and Hurricane Sandy. I’m not really here to talk about whether or not I think it should go on because no matter what, THE MARATHON IS HAPPENING. It wasn’t up to us, it was up to the officials, the mayor to make the right decision and I honestly believe that the officials are taking this hurricane disaster seriously and they are not willing to risk anything just for a marathon.

As each day passes, I see more and more people complaining about how the marathon is still happening. It’s overwhelming how many negative and mean remarks and opinions are out there. I 100% respect anyone’s opinion whether it be for the marathon or against it, but I don’t respect the people who are degrading the runners.

A lot of my friends actually don’t think the marathon should happen, but they aren’t the ones being assholes to the people who are running. There’s a difference between having a respectful opinion and just being a fucking douchebag.

Here are only a few examples of what people are saying on the NYRR Facebook page.

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This one really made me upset:

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I am running the race. I was determined to go into it and be excited and not feel guilty, but the comments that are happening on every social media platform are really getting out of hand. My feelings are mixed, but I don’t agree with many of the opposing arguments. The race is happening, I am capable of running, so I am going to run it. It’s the asshole comments that are unnecessary.

I am not a bad person, but all of this is making me feel like I am. The point of all this is to make runners feel ashamed, and to make them feel like assholes if they are running and suffice it to say, it’s working. I can no longer feel happy or excited about the race. Hell, I feel like I’m not even allowed to feel happy about anything. All of this negativity is making me feel ashamed for even existing in my apartment and feeling lucky that I came out of this storm unscathed.

I feel like I’m not allowed to be happy.

I’m going to run the marathon, but I’m honestly worried about what’s going to happen. Are we going to be running through protesters? Will there be people throwing eggs at us? I am so upset about this whole situation and I just needed to say something.

I just find it ironic that these people are telling the runners to use their energy somewhere else to help in the relief, but here they are bitching in front of a computer that is connected to the INTERNET.

I feel like friends will be lost in this battle and it’s truly a shame that the controversy has gotten this far. I’m not trying to offend anyone, I’m just pointing how out much negativity is being brought out by all of this and how it’s not getting us anywhere! It’s creating drama and showing us that everyone thinks they’re a genius.

You can have an opinion, just don’t be an asshole.

Time is quickly ticking away and we are down to the wire, people! 1 week until I am running one of the biggest marathons in the world! Ahhhh!

So, I am feeling much, much better, since my last crazy post! The taper crazies were happening, for sure. My weird neck pain went away and I finally feel like a normal human being. So what does my normal human being self do? Make Marathon To Do Lists of course.

We had a few friends over the other night and Nick, one of my friends jokingly added something to my list; “Run until finish line“. I laughed and thought, how appropriate! But, the more I thought about it, the more I realized how important that one task is. It’s so easy to get caught up in the extra things around marathon training. I know it’s important to feel prepared, but isn’t running a marathon about running and about crossing that finish line feeling proud?

None of these things on my list are really necessary. The only necessary ‘to-do’ is already done. I’ve trained my heart out and the hay is in the barn (I love this saying). Now it’s time to run one of the best races of my life, whether I meet my goal or not, it’s freaking New York City! So that’s what I plan on focusing on; running until the finish line!

Now, don’t get me wrong, I am still going to cross off all of these tasks one by one, because they will for sure help my brain feel a lot better come Race Day.

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I got so much done yesterday! I don’t know where all my energy came from, but it was nice to get it all out of the way, since I am now just sitting in sweatpants watching 30 Rock all day. I started off my day by heading to the Salvation Army to pick up some throwaway clothes. I bought these sweat pants that say ‘Plattsburgh State’, I don’t even know where that is, and yes I am wearing them today. They have been washed and they are quite comfy. Might as well get my $4 out of them!

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Then I went to Michael’s and picked up some sparkly pink letters and a cotton shirt that is the same color as the shirt I am wearing for the race. I am planning on ironing my name onto a cotton shirt and then cutting it out and pinning it onto my real shirt. Make sense? This was a set up, just getting it ready!

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I also went to Rite Aid to try and find some marathon nail polish. I was originally thinking I would do some kind of orange and blue thing, since those are the marathon colors, but I just wasn’t feeling it. I found this fun sparkly red color and I instantly fell in love. The color is called Red Velvet and I’ve already painted my nails. Hopefully just a touch up before the race will do.

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After all of my errands, I came home, ran 8 miles at an average 9:48 pace, did laundry, and went grocery shopping! I was done everything before 8pm! I made this delicious dinner of angel hair pasta with vodka sauce, mushrooms, and parmesan cheese.

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I ended my night by watching a cheesy horror movie on Netflix!

Today has been about relaxing, hydrating and eating lots of good food. I was planning on going to the Museum of the Moving Image tonight to see Poltergeist and Texas Chainsaw Massacre, but because of Hurricane Sandy, they are closing early and the screenings are canceled. Sad.

No work for me tomorrow (and probably a lot of NYC) due to the subways and public transportation shutting down, so it’s a 3 day weekend! Stay safe everyone!