This probably isn’t going to be a very happy post, just a forewarning.

I’m frustrated. Sad. Depressed. Annoyed. Etc.

Things are getting better with my quad/knee, but it’s taking quite a bit of time. I’m still not 100% and the NYC Marathon is a little over 5 weeks away.

• I ran 15 miles on August 31st. That was my longest training run and it was almost 4 weeks ago now.

• I’ve been recovering the whole month of September and I’ve run a total of 5 times. Anywhere from 1 mile to 10 miles.

• I ran 10 miles this past Sunday and my leg felt great, it felt about 95% the whole run.

• I’ve been going to physical therapy twice a week.

This week hasn’t been the greatest. My leg feels okay, but I feel like it regressed a bit after running those 10 miles. I don’t regret running those 10 miles, I needed to do them. At that point, I needed to know where I was.

I either take the risk and run long and hope for the best or keep not running and definitely not run the NYCM.

This injury is really fucking with me. I feel so up and down about it all the time. I have no idea what to do. I knew immediately to throw my goal of sub 4 out the window and I was fine with just finishing this damn race, but now at this point, I don’t even know if that’s possible. To say the least, it’s depressing.

I know it’s just a race, but for those who don’t know, this is the 3rd New York City Marathon in a row that I am unable to run. 2012, canceled. 2013, stress fracture. And now, 2014, who the fuck knows. Maybe I can still run, but I’m having a very hard time staying positive.

And to make things worse, I’m getting sick. The plan was/is to try and run 14 miles this weekend, but I have no idea how my leg is going to feel or if I’m going to be down and out with a severe cold.

I’m going up to NH tonight for a wedding this weekend, so I’m probably going to attempt those 14 miles tomorrow. My leg feels bad today, maybe because of the weather? Honestly though, I feel like these 14 miles are going to be a make it break it thing, since I’m kind of running out of time.

My training plan is sad and it kills me to look at it. :(

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PS. My schedule here is a mess and a mix of the old plan vs. the maybe future plan. It’s definitely not what I’m going to be running at all, so just ignore it.

I’ve stopped writing updates about training because my training kind of went to shit in the last couple weeks. And rather than give you all the boring details and timeline of everything, I’ll just give you some bullet points.

Training update:

•I have a quad strain.

•I haven’t run in over a week.

•I’ve been going to PT for it.

•It’s been very hard to stay positive.

 

Also, some general life updates for ya!

•I’ve picked up a 2nd job at a Beer and Cheese shop, 2 blocks from my apartment!

•I start tomorrow.

•I’m going to be working a lot between these 2 jobs, so maybe I’ll actually make some real money.

•My job description: pouring beer, talking to customers about beer, and tasting beer i.e. #dreamjob

•Also, I can teach you how to get a job without showering and without a resume. ;)

 

I’ll be sure to pop in and blog again when I have an update on my quad. Until then, trying not to be depressed.

nycmcancellationThis happened yesterday. Even though I had already accepted it and moved on, it definitely hurt to put the final nail in the coffin. I got nervous, sad, and unsure all of a sudden. All I had to do was push a button on the computer and it’s gone, no more New York City Marathon for me.

It sucks to think back when I initially got injured and how I thought I was kind of lucky because I wasn’t going to be missing any races or losing any money, I always thought it could be much worse, and granted it DEFINITELY could have been much worse. But, anyway, how wrong I was. I suppose it was for the better when I think about it. It allowed me to go through my injury period with hope and gratitude, rather than negativity.

Anyway, I’m not going to dwell on this, it’s done and over, I’ve officially cancelled my entry and I WILL be there next year.

What do I have lined up for the Fall? Sadly, not very much. I’m so used to racing so often, and not only all year long, but Fall is the prime racing season, so it makes me kind of sad to not have several races lined up. I’m definitely living vicariously through my friends who are racing the shit out of some marathons this Fall.

I keep considering signing up for one of the many half marathons in the area, but then I remind myself how out of shape I am. I mean, yes, I can cover the distance, but I much prefer to return to racing with some amount of confidence and speed under my belt.

In a little under 3 weeks, I am racing the

Poland Spring Marathon Kickoff (5M)

It will be mixed into a 9 mile training run, but I do plan on racing those 5 miles. I cannot wait to wear this beauty again!

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I haven’t worn my singlet since VCM, which was 4 months ago at this point. I don’t think I’ve ever gone so long without racing before. I’m sure my bank account appreciates it :) Err…minus losing $235 for NYCM.

As of right now, the 5 mile race and the Rehoboth Beach Half are all I’m signed up for. I’m considering the Race To Deliver, which is a 4 mile race put on by NYRR on November 24th. And I am also considering doing the Hot Chocolate 10k put on by NYCRuns on December 15th, the weekend after the Rehoboth Half. We shall see. :)

My focus right now is only run races that I plan on racing. Having this goal helps with saving money and learning to appreciate a race again. I love running races as part of training runs, but I’m not in that mindset right now. I want to race these races and start pushing myself again.

Anyone else running these races? What’s your Fall race season looking like? Are you signed up for several races?